Have you ever been so incredibly tired and spent that you have no choice but to collapse? You literally could not take on one more thing, even if you tried? You are probably thinking I'm nuts, yesterday I'm grateful for bad days and today I'm thankful for pure exhaustion...but I am. Here's why:
If you are anything like me, relaxing never really happens. Yes, I talk walks, watch TV, take showers, etc....but my mind is always on over-drive. Even while trying to take off. I have one day off a week, Fridays, and if I'm not spending that time volunteering in NYC, I'm usually doing housework...or sneaking into the office to work. I'm not forced to, but my mind is always so busy, that it does not know how to calm down. I clearly need to get better at this, but until I learn...this is how it works with me.
So, I really never actually collapse until my body, mind, and spirit can't take anymore. Yes, I know this is not healthy. I'm working on it. But still, I must be grateful to my body, mind, and spirit...for actually shutting down at times. For if it didn't, I would never relax.
Today, I'm so exhausted that it's taken me over an hour to write these few paragraphs. I'm so out of focus I can barely finish a conversation with someone. And my spirit is so burnt out that I'm actually visiting those facebook apps that tell me what God wants me to know. And if you know me...you know that means I'm desperate LOL. But I'm grateful. Because this means that I will actually rest this afternoon and tonight. Because I will have no other choice.
This may sound crazy...being grateful for pure exhaustion...but sometimes, it's how you look at life that really matters and not what happens.
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